~[viViaN]~

2006-09-26T22:36:00.000+08:00

coke bubbletea making in process.

2006-09-26T22:35:00.000+08:00

whoots go rafflestee! cant even see the pants.

2006-09-26T22:33:00.000+08:00

okay serene's one is muchmuch better xD

2006-08-15T22:52:00.000+08:00

posts only on what I did throughout the day now seem pointless and brainless.
ahh maybe I am becoming more mature!
I wish.
still, brainless posts are good for un-emo-ing. which is very much needed nowadays seeing that my classmates all think im some emohead.
- I digress but ugh I swear a mosquito just flew into the room and YES its itching -
Highlight1 of the day:
CHIBLOODYNESE PERFORMANCE TASK.
I realise that calling it a pt or a performancetask no longer does the s… thing that we have to do justice. actually it’s just because its CHINESE. I hate chinese. I dont understand why and my parents dont understand why and everybody else dont understand why my chinese sucks so much.
I mean, failing compos??? thats seriously like whatthehell.
thanks, really. youve just made me completely give up on the subject. hey I tried okay, I put in goodness knows how much effort into the freaking essay and I fail? okay so what I do is not enough, fine. dont do larh, waste my time anyway.
f… la I seriously pray that our pt turns out OK cause by her standards its probably NOT ENOUGH. it never is isnt it?
okay this shall not be an emo swearing post.
Highlight2 of the day:
ODAC COMM MEETING
it went okay! like wow seriously, maybe its cause I went in without pressure. Im starting to realise that maybe the problem doesnt lie with what-I-thought-it-did, but something else. and now I realise what that something else is.
guess I just need to break away from that. if I start talking about standing up for my opinions then this will turn out into a really cheesy post so no.
anyway haha we had the first half of the meeting in the fitness corner! it was so amusing and juanmin was worrying about birdshit HAHA. then mrtan passed around wangwang so they all started munching on wangwang which reminded me of siah and sihui’s conversation over recess.
siah: why do you call it bing1bing1 its bao3bao! (wangwang lookalike from stall 1)
sihui: its bingbing!
siah: no its not! okay what bing is it?
sihui: its the fan2ti3zi4 bing!
siah: no its the fan2ti3zi4 bao!
sihui: bingbing!
siah: baobao!
and ehmagawd the entire recess was spent on that. then during lunch my conversation with des and sihui.
me: ehmagawd FIVE bingbings! you look obsessed with that. why do you like bingbing I think wangwang is nicer.
des: *looks at me weirdly* no bingbing!
sihui: yes bingbing! you have weird tastebuds.
and hahaha jamiechows comment.
sihui: I like the powder on bingbing
jamie: thats not powder thats msg!
HAHAHA ehmagawd like WANYINFLUENCE NOT? Hahaha.
oooh I digress. back to wangwang during comm meeting. anw so after eating it all the ahloserhem people went to stick the stickers on their collars haha.
and halfway through the meeting beihan spotted us on her way out and waved. so being in the middle of a point I was trying to continue giving it and waving to her simultaneously without being too obvious that I was waving to her.
AND SHE DIDNT REALISE so I waved a little more AND SHE STILL DIDNT REALISE and she started JUMPING AROUND MADLY WAVING HAHAHA and that was when I started laughing and it looked like I WAS LAUGHING TO MYSELF and I swear everyone thought I was a PSYCHOHEAD LAUGHING IN THE MIDDLE OF SAYING SOMETHING.
but they did turn and see her so thats okay.
Highlight3 of the day.
REACHING HOME AND EATING DINNER. ahhh… no haha before that there was something else but still. lets have our dinner and movie soon okay=( we arent jinxed.
okay anyway now my heads a little oozy and I need to sleep.
SSPT IS FUN!
hahaha ehmagawd whatthehell I dont believe I just said that hahaha. lets not turn mugger!

2006-08-14T23:45:00.000+08:00

ehmagawd natday hols were like NO HOLS.
freak chipt. at least it will all be over tmr! dang I feel so cheated I really thought presentation was today lorhh whatthehell. then went to school and really SOMEONE wrote on the board that it was today.
anw nvm. now I simply have more time to worry about it.
watched my super ex girlfriend with cheryl today. the movie is damn lame chickflick! the entire movie was like one big cheesy predictable movie that promotes the fact that women are the severely emotionally needy handicapped.
anw, dont watch it. if you have a random 10bucks to spare go watch click! It is on my top5 list still.
anw, that woman forever makes me super guilty can.
ate so much in the cinema with her larhh, then came out and went shopping. wisma like having sale everywhere la. anw ALMOST bought this dress from phuturelondon. I swear it was damn hot! but being guai I convinced myself that I didnt need a bloody dress. so bought e tube ive always crushed from forever21 instead.
dang spent so much today. after that went to eat pasta with chee. discussed a bit about tmrs meeting so it was productive.
aye I WANT THE DRESS dang

2006-08-12T16:33:00.000+08:00

10 most physically beautiful women list:
10. FIONA XIE. she has like a superhot bod and a cutesy face.
9. JULIA ROBERTS. all time classic actress.
8. REESE WITHERSPOON. my inspiration ever since legallyblond.
7. KATE HUDSON. she is cute and pretty fullstop.
6. CAMERON DIAZ. even though she can look a little unglam in photos.
5. ANGELINA JOLIE. the debate between her and jenniferaniston goes on, but i support bradpitt.
4. KEIRA KNIGHTLEY. no questions asked shes elegant and beautiful.
3. PARIS HILTON. scoff all you like. i think she has a barbiedoll face which = pretty
2. TYRA BANKS. antm contestants are nothing next to her.
1. JESSICA ALBA. she shall go on top of my list because shes super gorgeous.
ahh i have gone mad.
okay the list gets updated constantly mentally.

2006-08-10T02:08:00.000+08:00

I dont know I dont know I dont know.
I hate you I hate you I hate you.
everytime I see something that reminds me of you I cant think straight.
I dont think it is really your fault. I just cant help it.
why do you keep doing whatever I seem never to be able to do?
what I have always wanted to but never seemed to be able to.
I told myself to let it go but right now it doesnt seem possible.
I dont know why.
I dont know I dont know I dont want to know.
it would be so much easier if we dont have feelings, if everything could just be shut off with a touch of a button.
I dont want it this is all too much.
I dont want to understand it. I dont want to understand you. I dont want to be near you.
go away go away go away.
hate is such a strong emotional word.

2006-08-08T23:07:00.000+08:00

if animals can communicate through simple actions, why are humans incapable of doing so? the meaning of words are purely figments of imagination (and possibly creativity) from someone ancient. why did the person come up with such a thing and why are we following it so diligently? maybe at times it seems useful, but everyone ought to see that many feelings and thoughts cannot be put down into words alone.
it is like science. a theory that seems so solid can just crumble and disintegrate with the presence of a single evidence against it. then why do we study it? why try to force ourselves to understand the universe when whatever we see now may no longer be in existence? humans are probably one of the few insignificant accidents that occurred when everything else was created, but here we are, trying to assume great roles and thinking that we are all that great in solving the mysteries of the universe.
some things are just not meant to be for us to understand.
or rather, we are just incapable of understanding them. just like how we cannot explain the universe, we cannot put down our emotions in words. it is simply just beyond us to do so. i can tell you i am feeling sad. but what does sad mean to me and what does it mean to you? it is only a term used. a term that is, in my opinion, vague and ineffective.
which is why i realise i cant tell you what i am feeling now.
it is partly because i think I talk too much sometimes, but mainly also due to the fact that i just cannot explain myself. so others may say that it is just me having a lousy grasp of english. but i would rather someone think that way, then to have you misunderstand what i really feel.
communication, is just another way for human beings to feel superior and self important compared to other creatures. when we really have no right in feeling as such.
i really have so much to tell you. really. just give me some time to adapt.

2006-08-06T23:41:00.000+08:00

our beloved sec4s. we will miss you! =)

2006-08-06T23:40:00.001+08:00

rachelchang acting pro. haha chio not?

2006-08-06T23:40:00.000+08:00

shiya's leaf. haha but she looks super cute.

2006-08-06T23:39:00.000+08:00

siti is pretty! =)

2006-08-06T23:38:00.000+08:00

sexy not? haha and olivia's failed attempt to look like cleopetra.

2006-08-06T23:37:00.000+08:00

tilt ur heads and look at wynnetang a second time! she's damn chio! omg i swear she looked like she was going to take part in some modeling competition.

2006-08-06T23:36:00.000+08:00

future news broadcasters

2006-08-06T23:35:00.000+08:00

yay pretty.

2006-08-06T23:34:00.001+08:00

nice shoes! and olivia's random shoeless foot.

2006-08-06T23:34:00.000+08:00

attempts at ballet.

2006-08-06T23:32:00.000+08:00

my masterpiece for shiya's toenails!

2006-08-06T23:31:00.000+08:00

mr lim! haha i hope this shot is okay to be put up here it's quite nice! =)

2006-08-06T23:30:00.000+08:00

super chio!

2006-08-06T23:29:00.000+08:00

chio red ones.

2006-08-06T23:28:00.001+08:00

the green and gold one is my favourite! =D

2006-08-06T23:28:00.000+08:00

fireworks! think it was for the fireworks festival but others say it's for natday.

2006-08-06T23:26:00.000+08:00

future makeup artist cheryllynnoh and my matching flower.

2006-08-06T23:24:00.000+08:00

sereneleong! she looks old in her shirt right.

2006-08-06T23:20:00.001+08:00

2006-08-06T23:20:00.000+08:00

haha omg total photowhoring. but i was wearing my clothes inside the robe okay! =D i want to bring the tub and the view outside home.

2006-08-06T23:19:00.000+08:00

the pretty decorated bed for the sec4s!

2006-08-06T23:18:00.000+08:00

-when we first checked in. the toilet is love!

2006-07-29T23:11:00.001+08:00

today was flag day!
ahh the fun of having to stand in orchard road and asking for donations. but I did meet a lot of interesting people =D I wont say flag day is pointless; it’s rewarding to return with a heavy jingling tin and have the auntie smile at me.
went out with chermaine ytd after school. walked around town and I fell in love with this converse bag! but chee managed to dissuade me from splurging. I swear I have obsessive compulsive splurging needs. die. maybe I will go and buy the blue roxy one it’s quite nice!
anw ended up eating at spinelli cause stupidchee refused to walk about 50m more to swensens. haha anyway sat there for about two freaking hours plus talking about the randomness things. okay started off normally enough on everyday subjects and then she had to turn all philosophical and yeah whatever. at 10 I refused to go home alone and persuaded her to sleep over at my house.
hehe my mum was super pissed off again cause I didnt go home for dinner but like whatever she always gets pissed off. anw the two of us came up with a dumb copycat blog of _____ haha and I thought her entry was seriously super mean but nevermind hopefully he wont mind.
we fell asleep at like 3am or something. and woke up at 12.20 today! haha and we were supposed to meet at 12.30 for flag day so oops. I totally tried to wake her up at 11.11 but chee is like sleeping queen of the year. springfield that time also lorhh!
aye okay so thursday was kayaking with odac! but before that went for this yearbook briefing. I am so going to die and so not going to be the one writing the report. maybe yapelynn/chee can be forced into writing it
quite a small group for kayaking cause all the sec2s had like amc (dumb) but yeah whatever. I like totally koped mrlim’s singles kayak cause I didnt want a doubles and we all thought he couldn’t kayak. but turns out that he was once in dragonboat cca in secschool and hence sereneleong and his boat were like whatthehell super fast.
started off normally enough. we were splashing water and trying to kayak backwards, which was like a failed attempt completely cause the drift current was so strong. and then sitinurani came around and capsized me! haha she was like, who wants to capsize? and I was dumb enough to think she was kidding so I said I wanted. haha actually I wanted to practice my c to c roll but she just flipped me over so oops.
anyway then mrtan capsized serene and mrlim’s kayak, and someone turned the thing over in the water so it just collected water and therefore, a deadweight of about 100kg or something I wouldnt know.
then we totally couldnt rescue it. so we tried paddling back with the kayak submerged, which didnt work at all. quote from mrlim’s blog: I think we just moved the boat by 50cm with all my exertions.
which sounds quite funny actually, but at that point I was seriously worried cause angie has never been in a singles before and she was paddling with me in flooded singles. the sky was like dark alrd larhh and we werent making progress at all but drifting back thanks to the current. I was like going to scream alrd cause whenever we got nearer to the closer bouy angie would turn and I would wait and we would drift so we never got closer.
then we saw andy and olivia paddling out. oli took angie back and andy had a pump so I emptied my water and went back to look for mrtan, mrlim, siti and rachel who were still stuck at goodness knows where and probably still drifting.
but when we saw them they were kayaking back alrd cause siti had a pump with her when she went to find them. so paddled back with them and I was like superslow! dunno why also but anyway thanks to andy who waited for me =)
aye. it was fun. afterwards went to kfc to eat and mrlim refuses to accept chee and my money cause he said he wanted to treat us. haha we tried all sorts of method to give his money back, including stuffing it down his bag and hiding it in his laptop. haha he found it anyway.
okay whatthehell this is a superlong blogpost. anw, hope I didnt screw up my comm interview! was like so nervous inside I bet they thought I was going to have a nervous breakdown haha. I’m ultrascared dont want farewell to come =(

2006-07-23T01:12:00.002+08:00

chio brown shoes!

2006-07-23T01:12:00.001+08:00

chio pink shoes!

2006-07-23T01:12:00.000+08:00

chio green shoes!

2006-07-23T01:11:00.001+08:00

more evidence of humongous bananas.

2006-07-23T01:11:00.000+08:00

sad loser carrotcake pieces. they dropped on the table!

2006-07-23T01:07:00.000+08:00

i tell you this is a cool picture.

2006-07-23T01:06:00.000+08:00

and ended up stranded in the middle of the road =S

2006-07-23T01:05:00.000+08:00

failed attempted to watch the worldcup.

2006-07-23T01:04:00.000+08:00

beihan's loser-ultra-long straw.

2006-07-23T01:03:00.001+08:00

*ahh* we ate so much! ><

2006-07-23T01:03:00.000+08:00

food -after

2006-07-23T01:02:00.001+08:00

food -before

2006-07-23T01:02:00.000+08:00

guess who's back.

2006-07-23T01:01:00.000+08:00

then we had biopt meetup. we want food!

2006-07-23T01:00:00.000+08:00

long ago pictures- chocolate fondue with beihan.

2006-07-23T00:53:00.001+08:00

and there was more. i bet the driver was amused.

2006-07-23T00:53:00.000+08:00

act like goldfish

2006-07-23T00:52:00.002+08:00

act amazingly happy

2006-07-23T00:52:00.001+08:00

act dao

2006-07-23T00:52:00.000+08:00

we were like totally photowhoring

2006-07-23T00:51:00.001+08:00

yanhan on the way to acsi for bob

2006-07-23T00:51:00.000+08:00

suspiscious looking item in our chocolate fondue. haha yes bh i recommended it to sherrie! and our marshmallows totally melted ltr.

2006-07-23T00:50:00.000+08:00

and i made her take my hair in the mrt towards cityhall. we got bored at orchard. oh yar couldnt be bothered to rotate pic btw.

2006-07-23T00:49:00.002+08:00

hot hotpink bag. saw zhengning at commde too

2006-07-23T00:49:00.001+08:00

her hat fetish

2006-07-23T00:49:00.000+08:00

some ulu shop in taka with sherrie trying on matching clothes. i'm so going back to buy the skirt it's nice!

2006-07-23T00:48:00.001+08:00

class photo! with our new teacher daniel lau who seems nice.

2006-07-23T00:48:00.000+08:00

and forgetting to zoom out. haha it was so dumb.

2006-07-23T00:47:00.001+08:00

- upon zooming in.

2006-07-23T00:47:00.000+08:00

during reflections everyone went crazy and started maniacally taking photos of one another.

2006-07-23T00:46:00.000+08:00

like -shrugs? haha dont u think zhixian's expressions says that?

2006-07-23T00:45:00.001+08:00

so lynette stones.

2006-07-23T00:45:00.000+08:00

then we had duty at the co room. ehmagawd i will totally lose my hearing 2 yrs earlier. at first they were bearably playing inside the room but then they swarmed out clashing cymbals like right in front of us.

2006-07-23T00:43:00.001+08:00

look at has! haha she looked superpretty.

2006-07-23T00:43:00.000+08:00

*blurred* wynnetang i love you lots! let's wait for mr lim's superpower camera photo =D

2006-07-23T00:42:00.000+08:00

xintian and andrea <33 i think they were on duty.

2006-07-23T00:41:00.001+08:00

peiqi didnt wear her suit! but nvm <33 you lots still.

2006-07-23T00:41:00.000+08:00

jiao1bei1 mai4ya2tang2! haha.

2006-07-23T00:40:00.001+08:00

powerpuff girls from china! like ewwgrossness actually but haha nevermind

2006-07-23T00:40:00.000+08:00

yes we got bored while waiting for the concert to start. anyway congrats to 301 for winning the dancecomp it was nice =)

2006-07-23T00:39:00.001+08:00

beihan and her unmatching pink bag!

2006-07-23T00:39:00.000+08:00

jamiechow! she's damn tall and damn chio right x))

2006-07-23T00:38:00.000+08:00

racial harmony day ytd! one of the first few photos taken in class at 7.17am *points to clock* ><

2006-07-19T21:32:00.000+08:00

went shopping for cheongsam today with brenda and beihan.
damn retarded larhh chinatown is such an ulu place!
ehmagawd and on the way there we totally saw s.k sleeping on the bus! we wanted to wake her up lorhh, but didnt cause we thought maybe she needed to ride e bus till e end. but whatthehell when we got off the bus she was the only one left on it! =/
anw, I dont think she will mind larhh I will be so super malufied if some random ppl woke me up cause I was going e wrong way that I would rather sleep on.
okay so we reached there and this random old uncle just came up to ask what class we were from. haha cause his granddaughter is like from rgs -.- brenda is like evilpok she was crossing her eyes throughout =D
anw got a nice blue cheongsam!
and ehmagawd today was like total bitchpms day.
whatthehell m.t was like being freaking irritating. first she let us off late for recess (like always). when she asked for volunteers to answer her I so wanted to see what would happen if nobody did. she cant like possibly hold us back forever what wth.
next during cle she scolded desiree, brenda and me for not printing out the bloody reflections. like we even knew that we had to do them!
then when brenda and I left for osl meeting she found us in the foyer discussing cause we were looking for chloe and she scolded us again! even guoling and chloe were like whatthehell what is her problem larhh.
and desiree is pissed off with her and s.s!
ehmagawd and liewsihui was like … too! she and siah arhh =/
aye okay so the whole world is like pissed off.
on a random note, the new sgidol whatever-her-name-is like a total airhead. she cant judge for goodness sake! she either rips off dick/florence or she makes some random comments -.-
project runway ltr! =))
okay rhd soon! Photowhoring time =DD

2006-07-17T03:25:00.000+08:00

3am and I cant sleep.
I’m really really sorry if whatever I said just now was not appropriate at that moment. I guess I ought to have realised it wasnt exactly the perfect time to pile all my problems on you. my original intentions just slipped and it became your turn to comfort me.
I dont know who you refer to, but if that person is me then I guess I have nothing to say in my defence. Andrea was probably right in saying that I only do what makes me happy. Sometimes I just forget the people who need it more.
I guess I’m just immature, or selfish.
Whatever you said was probably true. Maybe I dont look at someone deep enough to know whether she is still upset, or remember that a smiling person doesnt necessarily equate to a happy person.
If I just made you feel any worse about yourself then I really dont know what to say. I admit that I’m guilty of being insensitive. And now as a result you would rather pretend to be something that you are not than to worry everyone else.
I still need to learn so much more.
I apologise if our conversation made things worse for you.
You need to know that you have been one of the best people in my life that I could talk to. Remember that even the best make mistakes sometimes; you cannot always blame yourself for everything that goes wrong. There will always be moments when we flounder and times when no one seems to understand you, but if your final decision is to shut yourself away from those who care then really, no one can help you.
I’m really sorry, if I caused you to bottle up. And probably the worse thing now is that I cant tell you to smile or cheer up, because on hindsight that is undeniably superficial and unhelpful.
I dont know what damage I’ve done, but I truly hope that you recover soon.
- from an extremely guilty senior.

2006-07-16T22:42:00.000+08:00

I know I’m being ridiculous.

I know there’s not much point thinking so much on my part.

But even if I refuse to admit it to most people, deep down I’m still worried.

I guess if you were in my position you would too.

I wouldn’t say I’ve given up a lot, and I wouldn’t say that I’ve worked hard for it, and all the time there are better people who deserve it than me.

But it has to mean something, no matter what others say.

It’s not the end of the world, but it’s going to be quite hard to accept.

“dont u all communicate?”

jocelyne asked me that just now because I think she got fed up with farewell stuff.

I was tempted to tell her no, but that wouldn’t be politically correct.

But that pretty much summarises what we have been doing so far – not communicating.

Although no one mentioned it, I’m quite sure nyaa was a total communication failure. It was just that the consequences weren’t that severe.

We should all pretty much thank our lucky stars that nothing happened.

And to top it off I’m pissed off with you.

Talked to chermaine after openhouse and it just reminded me of everything that happened.

You don’t have the right to label me when you yourself are guilty, probably to a greater extent.

Fuck it I’m just damn irritated with you. and I still don’t believe you deserve it.

Through your incident, and a couple of others, I think people can safely conclude that in our school it doesn’t matter how much work you put in, or how far you can go. As long as you happen to interact with the correct people then that’s it, you’re in. may I ask you how is that fair to people who have worked far harder?

I’m not saying this for my own sake because I’m definitely not at that level yet.

I’m saying this because of what I see, and I believe there are people who will agree with me.

Okay so you think I seem to be an irresponsible senior because as a sec3 I’m supposed to be more aware of my surroundings. I’m supposed to be aware of my juniors, my batchmates, and not stick the same few people. Most importantly, I’m supposed to do what is right and not the things that I derive happiness from.

What about you? can u safely assure yourself that you have done what you promised to do? can u safely claim that you have fulfilled the responsibilities required of you? can you make those around you respect you because you have successfully done so?

Because from what I see, I think you are deluding yourself.

2006-07-14T19:52:00.000+08:00

ugh freak.

open house duties are like whatthehell!

everything clashes with everything else. and my mum was like not allowing me to go because i'm still slightly sick.

waa i swear this two days have been the slackest. had like high fever on wednesday!

anw, got mc for 2 days so didnt go to school for 2 days.

and whatthehell i had like super alot of medicine!

fever pills and severefever pills and antibiotics and cough pills and cough medicine.

hahaha.

anw i'm going to get fat. i've been sleeping and eating and doing nothing else this two days.

on thursday 6am woke up to take medicine.

then 9am woke up again to take more medicine.

then lunch woke up again to eat and take medicine.

then dinner woke up again to eat and take medicine.

haha and inbetween i was like sleeping throughout

aye.

okay back to open house stuff.

my schedule is like whattheheck!

7.45am - kschee briefing for ushering duty

8.00to8.30am - odac booth set up

8.00to9.30am - psb booth duty

8.30to9.30am - promote odac booth

11.00to1.00pm - osl duty

11.00to1.00pm - psb duty

1.00to2.45pm - psb ushering duty

hahaha i swear this is like the most screwed up dutylist i've ever had.

okay time to sort it all out!

and i need to email mraldrintee for the bio thing which i havent handed up. yikes.

OH SPEAKING OF WHICH, beihan has been kind enough to inform me that our new odac teacher is none other than MRALDRINTEE.

like omg whattheheck.

that's if her infosource is correct.

when i heard it over the phone i was seriously freaked out for like 10seconds.

help.

and all the time elynn was getting us worried over some old female chinese teacher.

aaaah!!!

okay nvm back to sorting out open house duties.

2006-07-09T14:37:00.000+08:00

ugh bio pt sucks ><

i'm like at brenda's house now doing pt! and i'm taking my turn to rest xD

okay i feel slack watching beihan and sihui do the tables.

HELP we are like never going to finish.

met them ytd at like 5.30? then stayed overnight.

we wanted to watch the worldcup! but then brenda's house got no cable tv! haha i swear we are like the smartest.

so then being the smart people we decided to go out and see if the nearby coffeeshop have, but then mei2you3. haha it was like 3am in the morning and we saw this drunkard that beihan was so scared off.

took random pictures sitting right smack on the road.

and we didnt watch it in the end!

aah i can proudly say that i have not watched a single match this year! =(

aye anw so we went back and watched internal affairs 2!

edison chen is hotness! he's mine okay brendaxie =D

so slept at like 5 in the morning, and sihui woke us up at 10.30 xD haha.

and now it's time for lunch! we are so not going to finish help!

and our presentation is like tmr! =(

2006-07-03T20:41:00.000+08:00

nyaa camp! <33

i went to the camp with the mentality that it was just another commitment that would take up my long weekend, which i could have originally spent it on studying math and doing bio pt.

but then now i do miss it (slightly), perhaps it's cause i'm currently faced with the prospect of having to go to school tmr and take my math test during first block.

aye.

batch15 just want to tell you that i love you all. even though i know you people arent regular blog surfers but still, we pulled off nyaa! i know last year we looked at the sec3s then slogging their guts out, and being scared cause it was our turn soon. i know last week we still thought the entire thing was crazy and there were so many things undone (at least on my part). and i know last night we were finally able to take a deep breath and smile because it was over (successfully).

chermaine:

i dont know what to say to you again! and i still owe you a rinjani letter ><>

weili:

we missed you at seoulgarden today! next time mustmustmust join us okay! i think we all saw the more serious side of you at nyaacamp, whether it was being strict with the participants, or keeping the facillitation of our debrief on track. you were awesome!

andrea:

aye you dillydallypok xD thankyou for being my wonderful fellow abseil dispatcher! i'm sure the participants will always remember our pretty faces. sorry i was a bit cranky on the second day, i guess it was the lack of sleep getting onto me. but thanks for always being smiley and bright!

serene:

hehe adriano nu2you3! you are so funny i love you lots. i think you've really tried and put in your best for this camp, i'm sure we all can see that clearly. dont worry too much about your math okay! i'm sure nyaa was worth the weekend, and you wouldnt fail okay! fail also fail together cause i'm screwed too! ><

elynn:

hello rubberbandphobic! i bet you are pretending to be vivianphobic when you secretly crush me right! haha nono i'm totally kidding xD i just like to disturb you cause you are really fun to disturb sometimes haha. but also you can draw the line between fun and going overboard, as well as finding a balance between having fun and being serious. but smile and laugh more okay!

sheryl:

sherylloh i really want to say thankyou for being so efficient when it came to logistics and stuff. i saw you running around all day to get stuff and i want to say sorry for troubling you so much with logs. i think among all the comms logs is like the worst comm to be in cause it requires so much organisation and foresight, so i applaud you for pulling it off!

cheryl:

heyy babe you know you love me! haha nyaa camp was like another camp for us to talk nonsense and do nonsense stuff, but i think it's quite fun! hehe thanks for always being the one happy and rarbishy sometimes because it made the rest of us cranky ones smile too. <33you!

tata&tolan:

even though you guys werent there with us at the camp, i hope you guys have had fun and learned something during the planning process!

sec2s:

the sec3s love you guys too! thankyou so much for the sweets and the letter, it made us smile =) i guess telling us that nyaacamp went successfully made a difference cause we ourselves cant really judge on how it went. thanks for always encouraging us on and helping us so much. i was really impressed during debrief on the second night when all of you took the initiative and spoke up. your opinions are all valued, and i'm sure the sec1s looked up to you guys alot that night. good job sec2s! it will be ur turn next =)

sec1s:

you bunch of crazy guys! haha xiexienimen for being so cheery when all of us are cranky and tired. it's not the age difference okay! haha but i'm glad you all thought the camp was fun. i'm sure you have learnt alot of things from your seniors, not just odacians, but the participants as well. you guys did a really great job okay! =))

sec4s:

aye all you old people out there well done facillitating! it sounds rather scary. anyway, i just hope that nyaa camp was, at the very least, up to your expectations. i know we havent been the most responsible batch in the world, and that sometimes we just have a little communication problem within the batch. i think we still do, but i believe that we are trying to improve. thankyou all.

aye. okay so that's all the shoutouts.

nyaa camp was quite okay i guess. some memorable moments like shiya spitting out her popsicle and having it all caught on video and replayed for everyone xD

elds icecream!

elynn making funny expressions when caught on video.

batch lunch at seoulgarden and studying at the library afterwards.

abseil dispatching!

day activities running smoothly (yay!)

good job everyone. i wont want to go back to school.

and thankyou. i guess your reflections were to make me feel better and less cranky, and i really appreciate that =)

2006-06-24T23:41:00.000+08:00

ughughUGH school is like starting again.

freak. i hate school. it's like this one beeg massive dampener that takes the fun out of everything.

so you tell us to be happy with what we have.

so we tell ourselves to look at the larger picture in life and not worry about schoolwork.

i mean, what has a piece of gpa got to do with life?

we try to assume the roles of greater beings and THINK about our so called existence.

yeah so we thinkthinkandthink. but in the end when tests come around the supposedly great thinkers shut themselves off from all philosophical thoughts and bury themselves in endless piles of textbooks.

yeah knowledge i'm sure.

half of what we learn dont even stay with us dammit.

no wonder vivianthinks is an oxymoron.

if i had a choice i'd climb rinjani again if that means i could miss a term in school.

speaking of which, i wanted to post bits of my reflections:

If we had the Use-One-Word-to-Describe-Your-Feelings reflection method with ODAC after Rinjani, my word would have been ‘blessed’.
Climbing Rinjani has taught me that I am blessed in many ways. After seeing the villagers in Senaru, I realised that I take what I have for granted sometimes. Despite not having enough basic necessities, they seemed contented with life and genuinely glad that we complete our climb successfully.

***
After Rinjani, I believe that my respect for many other people grew. I respect Siling for being strong during the trip. Her confidence when descending Rinjani shows that she has overcome her fears and improved a lot. She has faced up to her problems, which is something I had not expected that she would be able to do so well in, and I really admire her for that. I respect the Sec 4s, especially Wynne, for being able to set an example in self-reflecting. The manner in which she conducted the reflections at base camp shows that she has been through a certain level of thinking. I also respect Mr Tan more, after what he told us at the airport coming back from Rinjani. I’ve always thought that his disappointment in us was a mark of his expectations for us, but I believe few would ever think that it came from the disappointment in him.

***
To address the question of why ODACians put themselves through so much to climb a mountain, I think it is because we have everyone around us who is doing the same. It is not just the encouragement we give each other that pushes us on, but it is we knowing that despite being tired and stretched to our limits, we will always have the determination to continue. We know that ultimately, the journey will be worth it when we come out stronger knowing that we did not give up, and I believe that is what sets us apart from others.

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shit juanmin just totally reminded me that i havent done anything for nyaa!!!

ahhhhhh shit bloody hell.

i totally forgot about it!!!!!!!

diediedie shall confer with chee tmr.

anw, my parents are becoming damn lame please!

ugh. first my DAD became obsessed with this dumb bubble shooting game cause my MUM kept playing it.

and they installed the bloody thing on both my mum and my sis' laptops so now u can hear the stupid music going pingpingping all day. ugh.

and when i finally went to sleep at like 12 last night i heard the music so i thought my mum was playing it.

then i went to the dining room and my DAD was there!

AHH help. it's like a bunch of foreignbeings attacked and possessed my dad's brain or something.

and just now in the car he was telling my mum how when he sleeps he can see the bubbles in all their various colour.

got blue, red, PURPLE!

i have nothing against purple i just dont need the details thankyouverymuch.

and just now we went marina square and they both wore red!

aaaah attack of the angkukuehs.

shit i will just die if they start becoming so cheesy and freakinglame.

okay nvm it's 12am i shall be a good girl and sleep.

or i can always read a book in bed and daydream.

i've been daydreaming alot nowadays ><

speaking of which i might as well make a wishlist!:

new sling bag! preferably white/red/black!

new red adidas jacket! (yes i'm still waiting for my redjacket)

black hairband!

blue hairband!

new SHOES!

aaaah was walking around marinasquare and i realise that they have NICE SHOES!

shoefetish! <33<33

i'm turning so bim i cant stand myself.

but i want brown heels!

and green sandals.

yay. i'm so weird someone save me.

juanmin i cant wait for our moviedate on monday! =))

2006-06-23T15:00:00.000+08:00

okay i shall stop being such a bitch.

i miss rinjani! and i think it's well about time that i update about it or i never will.

so.. 15thjune. cabbed to school feeling ugly in my trackpants (sorry i'm an egopok xD) and the taxidriver didnt have change for 50bucks! aiyeh should have anticipated that.

so i had to borrow money from my mortal and thankgoodness for that. chionged back out to pay.

rachel and jocelyne came to send us off! rachel and her jacket story tsktsk!

the planeride to lombok was madness!

rushed out our prereflections which, honestly, were just a whole load of crap.

sat with serene and chermaine and it was so chaotic ha ha.

first chee tried to blow up her vomitbag. but she was laughing so much the bag was totally blooping.

then we both practically squashed serene cause we wanted to take a photo but she was plonked in the middle.

then serene wanted to wear her vomit bag.

i took picture with daidi! hahaha was like acting dumb.

anw after the plane ride took a 3hr ride to sembalun and was ultra bus sick.

shared a room with wynne and siling and wynne was being so dumb!

i took the middle mattress and she complained her bed was too high. so being the smart wynne she literally rolled down on me.

and she took up so much space i rolled down onto siling.

so in the end i took her bed and ended up freezing!

in the morning. mr lim and his 'datetalk'

mrlim: banana is good. it has alot of electrolides(sp?)

mrtan: is that how you talk on a date?

anw the trek up to base camp was like crazyness.

it nevernever seemed to end cause we were just seeming to be walking around in circles and the volcano never seemed to be nearer.

lunchpoint was weird. elynn and her whale line. (wallace line) bloop.

anw finally arrived at base camp after forever.

i wont want my boyfriend to propose to me on rinjani mrlim! i would be looking so unglam please he will run away.

anw missed the sunset! =(

slept early for summit push at 2am.

was damn freaking scared cause had superbad altitude sickness on kinabalu and i didnt want the same thing again.

but i guess it wasnt as bad.

but walau the summit! i was crying when i reached it larhh please it seemed so impossible.

rarbish volcanic ash. by the time i put one leg in front the other had slid down alrd so i wasnt making progress at all.

anw by some miracle we reached it. and slid all the way back down to base camp.

had reflections, and i must say i learned alot from it.

if you want to question why we do such seemingly weird and torturous things such as climbing a volcano, well i guess i have to say it's cause we do it as odac.

sounds cheesy, but it's completely true.

we push ourselves because we know that the people around you are doing the same, and they expect you to do the same too.

relaxed and stargazed at night.

juanmin i'm so happy i was with you when i saw the shooting star.

i want to compile rinjani quotes!

omg so cool please.

mrlim's cool song:

yeepa underneh pali ni ahba. appleapple orleng horligar. yuandebunah biandenah, biandebunah yuandenah. yuandenah biandenah, yuandebiande quanbunah!

hahaha stupid cannon i was singing with chee and weili down rinjani.

and his gay flashing ultraman.

anw reached senaru, and i realised i kena my thing!

hahaha stupid elynn kept laughing at us when we wanted to learn how to wear a thingy.

and weishan and i had to learn it from ms cheryl!

haha so farnie.

anw went to weishan's room early in e morn to put it on.

stupid cheechee overhear our conversation in the toilet!

but because of censor-sake i shall not post the convo here. HAHA

go weishan/pon.

anw the waterfall was fun!

yapelynn sprained her ankle that doodoo.

shopping trip!

and baack to singapore.

wrote thankyou notes on the plane. and i'm so glad i wrote one to m****. i guess we've really learned alot from him, and i really respect him for what he has done.

ahwells. i miss lombok!

2006-06-21T21:52:00.000+08:00

viviangan you're such a selfish bitch.

stop moping around whatthehell you're just a freaking shitass.

stop blaming everyone else for everything.

what is wrong with you.

yapelynn i hope you had a good birthday today. sorry i was being such a emobitch.

and thankyou juanmin i'm feeling fine.

ugh viviangan you suck.

please wake up and stop moaning.

i miss rinjani.

2006-06-10T20:52:00.000+08:00

i must be bored again.

i think blogs were invented for bored people who have nothing to do.

had to wake up damn early this morning to go school for progscomm meeting.

chalet! =)

talktalkdigressdigresseateat and i was late to meet beihan.

anw she got the timings for our movies wrong so it was okay. hehe.

the benchwarmers is such a gay show whatthehell! haha.

okay larh. it was QUITE funny. quite.

saw haas!

and some unwelcomed people *eww*

went to lime flea market and bought two skirts! viviangan is splurging again.

but whatever i swear it was beihan's fault.

-bh holds up a green skirt-

bh: BUY! it! it is nice!

salesgirl: yeah buy!

bh: buy!

sg: buy!

okay whatever under pressure viviangan bought it.

and then i saw a NICER skirt! ><

hehe. oops.

anw beihan splurged too! she and weiru finally bought their whiteorange nike bags.

i like the darkblue one! even though it looks "more guy"

okay whatever.

anw, left them at cine and went to shop for my mum's birthday present!

got her a citigems pendant x) which is quite pretty! hehe.

anw, went for dinner with my mum and my annoying brat of a sister.

she's so irritating i dont feel like getting her a birthday present.

ugh.

anyway, during dinner a guy came around to sell soft toys for charity, and everyone just turned him away.

then another guy came around to sell tissues and everyone ignored him.

i guess singaporeans are just being cautious when they do that cause any random person can come up and sell stuff.

along orchard road it's the same thing. people bask and ask for donations, but who knows if they arent actually disabled and are able to earn a living through normal jobs?

but then when too many of these people come about then what happens to those who actually needs the charity of passersby?

was at far east the other day waiting for litying to try on a top, and this old ahma came buy asking the shopsalesgirl to buy tissues from her.

she had this whole wodge of tissue packets and she was selling them for only 1dollar.

yeah okay salesgirl just take out your bloodyprobablybrandedpurse and buy that stack from her!

but oh no she maintained that she didnt have any money with her at the moment.

yeah sure i really do believe that you know.

okay so we, as teenagers blahdeblah, probably likes spending money on materialgoods. because as usual blahdeblah the money that we spend is not ours, but our parents', so we dont know how hard it is to work for it.

but if i start making excuses that it is my hard earned money to such an extent that i refuse to part with a dollar for like 8packet of tissue, then i'm sure there is something seriously wrong.

i would rather let my child spend a few dollars helping those who might not necessarily need charity than let him/her refuse help to those who honestly do.

so we are a bunch of spendthrifts.

but would you rather we become stingy? maybe half of orchardroad would have to close down you know.

chermainecheeyingxue i think i'm going to start being like you and give to old people along the street.

i guess it's like what you said, people like you/us just have a soft spot for them.

i wouldnt have felt so indignant about the salesgirltissue incident if the person selling them wasnt an old ahma.

okay i have just sufficiently wasted half an hour on this stupid post. good.

sherrieloe nglitying and ongyanhan come back i miss you! =(

2006-06-09T22:24:00.000+08:00

i am NOT OBSESSED.

*shakes head*

*shakes head again*

hahaha beihan i swear i'm not deprived shit!

whatthehell.

haha.

okay this is such a freaking random blog entry.

hehe. =)

2006-06-07T21:19:00.000+08:00

kayaking!
haha i am like super chaota-ed now.
i think 3star course is fun.
okay actually it’s just cause we stayed in the pool a lot and didnt go to the sea as much. viviangan is too lazy to carry kayaks around.
went east coast for odac bonding session today, which was okay i guess. i spent half the time bingeing and e other half reading the freaking chinese book.
then afterwards went to kayak! saw the canoepolo ppl. COOLNESS.
haha jb and andy were like ‘huh’ to see us again cause our course just ended like ytd.
oh wells. we missed it.
i can do the freaking c-to-c roll! *grins*
walau it took me like how long to get it. but i can do three consecutive ones!
then i forgot how to.
hehe oh wells. maybe can go back soon!
ytd's course was fun larhh please. haha
it started raining halfway through the skills teaching so we just played around in the pool.
stupid cheechee wanted to steal jb’s cap.
so we did.
and threw it around.
and hid it.
and got dunked in the pool like countless times by him.
then the rest stole andy’s cap.
and they got dunked too.
hehe and in the end we didnt even practise our draws properly.
but oh wells. practised it today and i roughly get them!
viviangan is feeling proud of herself! =)

2006-06-03T22:30:00.001+08:00

poof i'm bored

i seem to go into bored stage everytime i sit in front of the computer.

then ppl will have to entertain me =D

went 3star kayaking todaaay.

we all thought chermaine chee forgot that there was a lesson cause she didnt turn up till 1plushr later. but we found out that it was cause her ahma got a heart attack!

eeeps

but it's okay. to quote chermainecheetheevilpok, "the ahma that had a heart attack is the ahma that i don't like."

she thinks she's so smart

towards the end of the course when we were doing the freaking rolling thing she was being so irritating!

me: chee! i'm sitting on my spraydeck(sp?) again

chermaine: who ask your butt so big. you know my auntie thought her butt was big so she went jeanyip to shrink it! it was some radioactive machine. you should go.

me: sorry woman i just have a very nice figure cannot harh.

chermaine: if i had your figure i wouldnt have a cg.

chermaine: the only reason why u have a cg is cause u have no brains. so it's very light on top

me: shut up chermainechee i'm going to drown you here.

-our instructor junping came along-

junping: eh you two stop playing

me: you know what she just said i have no brains.

junping: erm haha yes i heard that part *sniggers*

ahhh!

hahaha omg cheekopehchee i swear i'm going to drown you the next time your life is in my hands when you do your rolls.
okay anw, on a more serious note,

i got 52 for my chinese!

hahaha omg like whattheshit is that.

i'm now just amused.

anyway, collected our interimreports on thurs.

then after my doctor's appointment went to watch the nun with beihanwanyidesireebrendaviviansiah

sihui went to do her rs that guaipok and jamiechow went for art that guaipoktoo!

must be influenced by me.

on the other hand we all didnt hand in our english essays.

oh well whatthehell it is the holidays afterall =D

THE NUN IS LIKE WHATTHEFREAK

desiree and i were so tempted to run out of the cinema.

okay actually i am tempted to run out everytime i watch a horror show.

but still. the plot was quite cool!

okay then after that went to beihan's house to play mahjong.

and i won! =D

refused to go home afterwards cause i wanted to watch baoliandeng

smartbeihan predicted the ending correctly x)

she and her jiangmeng. and her fatnosesmileyface

(c:

that time i did it on msn and mine wai1diao4de!

badnosejob. tsktsk.

lala okay rantings shall end here.

juanmin see you got your post to read! it's ultralong! =D

oh and i got my playboy shirt! haha it's partially pink!

i also bought a series top. 2 zara tops. and 3 phuturelondon tops.

and a blossomz skirt.

and a pencilcase.

went out loads.

and effectively spent 200bucks in 1 week of holiday.

aint i smart? =)

2006-05-31T01:45:00.000+08:00

rars

i'm like damn freaking bored.

it's freaking 1.42am now.

and where am i?

haha shant tell u.

but i'm like freaking bored.

today was so BORING.

cant wait to go beihan's house to sleep.

i'm tired! =/

BOORING.

GRAH.

i feel damn cheated of my 18bucks.

UGH.

2006-05-25T21:08:00.000+08:00

SHOPPING =D

haha went out with brenda and beihan yesterday after school to shop cause there was NO CGR DUTY! heehee i couldnt find fel and e room was locked, so tammy told me i could go.

so went to paragon cause we wanted to check the dance classes, but then we chickened out cause it was really scary! like all the pros there.

then got to marina square! walau that place is so not nice! big but got nothing really really nice to buy. i did see this quite pretty tanktop at zara, but didnt buy it in the end =( so ytd nv buy anything!

rars dont care must go out tmr with litying and sherrie to BUY SOMETHING.

stupid couple at bk. they were sitting there without buying anything, and we were sitting there minding our own business for about 5 mins. then when we left the guy said, "what school are they from arhh? why like that one." which i assume is cause we didnt buy anything but he wasnt in a place to talk cause he nv buy anything too!

then ltr we got really high and random.

and started making lots of noise.

so in the end was quite fun. =D

2006-05-23T21:04:00.000+08:00

Cause it makes me that much stronger

Makes me work a little bit harder

It makes me that much wiser

So thanks for making me a fighter

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to peiqi, just want to tell you to stay strong.
at the end of the day, i guess it's the journey that we should all treasure, being part of psb06. i remember seeing you during orientation and being scared of you cause i thought you were dao, and telling you we had the same cgr duty. i wonder if we would have gotten to know each other if it wasn't for our cgr duty.
i remember
the many crazy moments during orientation when we weren't that close
my painstakingly made birthday card from you
your church evangelist thing with shihui.
psb convention with other oc members
matching pink hairbands at psb echo
the many photos we didn't manage to take eg swim carn
the many photos we did take
cgr duty with candice and the basketballers
our upcoming cgr duty
our tentative movie date with lynettetay etc.
you wanting to wear a suit for racial harmony day and throw a flower in the canteen
you wanting to go australia to study
but of course the list goes on as time passes, because we move on as well. don't dwell on what it could have been, but be glad because it happened. just want you to know that i really treasure our friendship, and please smile peiqi. we all love you lots.

2006-05-21T22:21:00.000+08:00

okayy shall blog to cover up the previous entry.

kayaking was relatively fun thanks to my great idea of KAYAK POLO!

haha that was madness man. 2sec3s (me and cheechee) versus 3sec4s (rachel siti wynne). and sec4s cheat! =D tickle summore larhh sitinuraini! haha.

head prefect nominees out!

GO YANHAN! lubx u worxx! =D

i got a headprefect nominee to go mos with me u tell me how pro am i! haha.

speaking of which, i havent gone shopping for a top! =( okayy that sounded really bim. shall stop.

spsb results out next tues! i just had a totally weird dream last night of psb at a camp, with mr chu announcing the results at night. then he gave out letters to ppl and i was damn freaked out. but then he said those who received letters didnt get in!

okayy must be the stress. i'm having such weird dreams.

grah.

diechemdiechemdiechem!

i really want to do well for my eoi cause my chemspa sucked. i just know it sucked. but i cant seem to be able to pick up my file and mug!

arrghh what's wrong with me.

there's something VERY wrong with me.

dont worry liewsihui i dont think it's ur influence! =D

i'm going to grow fat! eat too much arhh xD

2006-05-15T21:44:00.000+08:00

EHMAGAWD
maths sucked. chinese sucked. chem extralessons sucked. eng compre sucked.
shit i really dont want to fail chinese. i'm damn scared larhh wtf. i swear throughout the entire year whatever that has been graded I failed pls. out of the bloody SIX compos I wrote this yr, 3 were graded and i failed all of them. including my fucking sa. wthell dammit.
SIX COMPOS I WROTE WTHELL. SIX!
dammit. and i failed that bloody formative too. fuck i'm damn screwed.
i swear when i first say my maths paper i really wanted to tear it up and like throw it away.
my chinese paper too. i reallyreallyreally couldn’t be bothered to read that freaking passage.
ARGH.
and chem! ehmagawd let’s not even go there.
sucks larhh wth.
kayy entry is damn vulgar. should stop now.
went with beihan after english to accompany brenda to her dental appointment at heeren. Went up by the deserted back entrance but that place smells nice! haha. and the clinic’s like over populated with rgs girls!
rars me wants shopping.
after that went with beihan to lot1 to eat macs! cause our school food is like the limits. sucks!
speaking of which, i felt ultra cheated today! i spent like 5mins during lunch wandering around cause I couldn’t decide on what to eat. then i wanted macaroni. so i queued for 5mins. then the uncle tell me DONT have! ehmagawd i think my reaction must have been damn big cause e lady in front turned around, saw me, and LAUGHED. wth.
anw, did chem worksheets at macs. i THINK i somewhat get mole concept.
anw macs was damn farnie!
first she started to wave at random ppl (mostly cute 4yr old kids)
then random conversations!
me: “i think that girl is so botak!”
beihan: “what? *sees the 2yr old kid* U ARE SO MEAN!”
hahaha
and THEN
beihan: “eh! i ask u a very important question. when u needed to pee after drinking coffee this morning, did your pee smell like coffee?”
me: “HAHA. sorry i dont smell my pee”
beihan: “NO! haha but you can smell!”
me: “yeah maybe it diffuses. so next time i stand inside and wait for e smell to diffuse larhh!”
HAHA damn amusing. too much chem sorry xD
kayy last minute mugging for chem!
SPA IS 25PERCENT WTH.
grr.

2006-05-13T22:09:00.000+08:00

choir concert!

okayy that was thursday.

it was quite nice! but i still preferred last year's one. this musical too much talking larhh!

anw, training ended early (around 5.30) that day, then andrea and i went to bathe at the toilet beside the cgr. ate zooland for dinner! haha limin all ur fault larhh.

saw vivianlee inside cgr room at first when i wanted to go in to put my stuff after bathing, but thought she was a teacher! haha cause i saw her backview. waa she bathe very fast lehh! apparently she went in after andrea and i and came out waay before us.

and she overheard our conversations too

andrea: ahh! vivian is ur toilet flooding?

me: huh no why?

andrea: MINE IS! can u lend me ur towel?

that woman had to come out of e toilet to wear her jeans. haha.

after that went to bus stop to meet crystal. smart person forgot to bring her ticket!(but bird let her in anw)

peiqi dahling! finally a photo =) it's chio kayy!

mr joseph toh, when asked if we can take a picture:

"girls, there is plenty of time for you to do this during alma mata"

his other comment:

"it's so funny to see you in normal clothes"

wanyi's louya phototaking skill =D

[me weishan siti]

sihui u look good on cam kayy!

- the start of concert -

some pro girl with her tarantella (sp?) solo piece

the sec 3s and their complicated top xD chaoying vivienteo and jiajun!

scandalous people xD and the girl kneeling is ewwness! (we all know why)

the sec 4s

cute opening of the musical

mother goose, her kids (bata, nike, reebok, jimmy, choo, etc) and er.. "are you mine?"

the silk. and the bread talk ripoff xD

and they aim to pour water

the king, his queen. the heroine of the story, her fairytale guy.

yep so that was choir concert. interesting inclusions of things like, "i smell like vinegar" to spite the sec 4 chem project. =))

2006-05-09T19:12:00.000+08:00

okay must blog about today! haha so interesting please.
okayy first main thing that happened was the bird incident during recess! ehmagawd i swear it was damn farnie. okayy quite sad actually, cause the bird really very poor thing! but it started with becky’s table screaming and all of them running away, then izzah’s(sp?) table. then we were like wth what’s happening. and tata we saw the bird! ehmagawd it was like limping and couldn’t fly properly, so it kept going to all the wrong places! like under the tables. and if u noe how screamy rgs girls are arhh.. haha our half of e canteen was like in total uproar pls!
-kayy wait goes for dinner-
-kayy back from dinner-
anw yes. e bird must have been traumatised xD
rars then ENG COMPRE. ehmagawd i totally screwed that f thing up wtf. DIE i'm going to DIE. i bet i will just totally fail my summary! f jtoh’s method of summarising DOESN’T WORK bloody hell. i'm like freaking scared i'll flunk it! GRAR freak.
okayy so just had to relief my stress. went out for lunch with sihui brenda beihan jamie wanyi desiree and viviansiah to scotts pastamania and ate their yummy yummy al funghi thing! haha I think it’s spelled like that. omg i was damn lousy pls!
guy at counter: what do you want?
me: oh crap. erm i dunno how to pronounce! *points to the menu* i want this.
guy: okay… type of pasta?
me: oh shit what is it called? haha *points to the long flat pasta*
haha i bet he was laughing at me! haha no i bet he gets that from everybody xD
kayy then RAN back for chem extra lessons cause we thought we were late (thanks to some ppl’s bubble teas!) haha but SHE WASN’T THERE! GRAH.
okayy then racked my brain cells for 2hrs trying to figure out moleconcept. eeee
sereneleong cheat my feelings NO ODAC! grah.
fine. so i had to lug my bigbig backpack home (okay fine it was flat and empty but still!) and no ipod! haha cause i thought my dad would be fetching me! =(
lala took 190 with beihan home.
and upon reaching home i decided to go RUNNING! cause i felt fat from pastamania. all that cream sauce! *freaks out* went to e stadium before realising that they were cleaning it. me: huh how do u clean the stadium? but had to figure out a new route. i was so tempted to go into guilin! like go up the hill and stuff but then figured that it was crazee. so went one beeg round to westmall and via the country club and back. XD
okayy going to watch tv! don’t feel like studying. go away ting1xie3!!

2006-05-07T16:02:00.000+08:00

i think I want to go into pr in future xD
so fun.
okayy that was random.
but isnt pr so me?

2006-05-06T13:41:00.000+08:00

[siling arhh.. i got nothing much to blog about! =/]

okayy nvm.

2.4 run was quite okay for me. i improved by like, a minute! xD quotes wynne *happiness!* ends quote. tralala. i dont understand how some ppl can run under e pressure of a targeted timing set by someone else. eeeps so freaky.

and then we have howanyi with her ingrown toenail wanting to run 2.4. darl pls rest and take care!

on weds. went to shop with sherrie! haha i'm like always dragging her to go shopping. she mugs too much larhh that woman. xD anw, bought my new baag! and a top for choir concert. now i'm broke =/

just asked cheryl to go mos with me (not mos burger =D). still dunno if she can go anot. rars dahling u had better be able to go kayy! =) so guai larhh go tell ur dad u will reach home after 12 xD like he will allow after that! *amused*

waa next week is like eoi week. physics eng ss! but it's mainly physics. STUPID PHYSICS. rars it was like one of my better subjects and after ssss taught it i'm like huh? at it. GRAH *bashes ssss up*

when will e spsl results be out? =(

2006-04-30T14:50:00.000+08:00

just changed my blogskin=)

dont really think it looks nice actually.

ah wells nvm!

found out that arina and i do random things!

we were like both up at 1.30am this morn changing our template xD

i changed my tagboard! (like finally)

2006-04-25T20:26:00.000+08:00

tell me, why are we thinking about all these now?

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havent blogged about odac trainings for ages. maybe it's cause i keep putting all of it off due to time constrains, or maybe my blogger was just too screwed up for me, but i think the last time i did so was probably last year or something.

today's training reminded me of where my priorities lie. it's like this brief period in time when you get overwhelmed by all the possibilities and forget what meant most to you originally.

actually it was quite normal, just some pt in school, but the seemingly crazy 10sets of stair climbing turned out crazy in a different sense.

thanks siti, for always being there to bring laughter to us.

sang loads of songs out of tune. (i pity the people who had to walk pass us, or those in the classrooms nearby) i always knew i couldnt sing, so having an opportunity to yell at the top of my lungs was really fun.

it's not like we werent tired. i was out of breath like some asthmatic person. but after being really high and stuff, i kind of forgot how bad pt was, but just that it was a totally crazy moment for us.

i think i went into pms mood after playing basketball with odac.

hope no one could tell.

dont know what happened to me also. it's like this freak inside who turned on my pmsy mood. ugh sometimes i cant stand myself for being like this. i think i ap-ed today.

gonglaoshi spent chinese block talking to us about the meaning of life and stuff. we've heard it alot from her alrd, but this one whole lesson block was really dedicated to her sharing. coincidental that it tallied with what chermaine just talked to me about.

are we really all so caught up in a materialistic world that the people around us simply becomes tools to be used to achieve our goals?

when you start distancing yourself from those people who care for you because you think they are no longer worthy of your time in your pursuit for a higher ground, maybe you aren't ready to take that step higher.

when we start being blinded by a seemingly better position, do we forget about the things that once brightened our day?

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we are afraid of losing all, so how many will take a step back?

2006-04-20T20:54:00.000+08:00

rgs book day was (wow) actually fun =)
WILLY WONKA, WILLY WONKA, BLAHBLAHBLAHBLAHBLAHBLAHBLAH
AUGUSTUS GLOOP, AUGUSTUS GLOOP. THE BIG FAT GREEDY NINCOMPOOP!
i'm so hiigh.
BRENDA I WANT PHOTOS! XD
we wore like house shirts and fbts to be oompaloompas! (aha yes i was one!) then we tied our hair in a balakoo at the top! plus rosebud hairbands. and because of that:
- during english when we went to change -
me: *comes out of the toilet and stares at mirror* waa i look dumb with the hair!
wanyi: eh u look waddle! (me wearing waddle shirt)
me: yeahh. EHMAGAWD.
*runs back to class and bangs open door*
me: BEIHAN! *starts doing waddle dance* AUGUSTUS GLOOP! AUGUSTUS GLOOP!
- during maths -
me: eh, my shirt is like damn long. let's make it into a pinafore.
*starts putting a belt around my waist*
me: ehmagawd i look like a bumble bee
*starts borrowing more belts from people*
fel: omg vivian gan what are u trying to do?
viviansiah: omg vivian gan!
josselyn: eh stand up!
*me stands up briefly then goes hysterical*
and all this while our poor maths teacher was in class! haha sorry miss sia xD
- lunch -
me: hi elynn!
elynn: what are u?? *stares in horror(
me: oompa loompa!
elynn: okayy. cause u look like a teletubby.
EXCUSE ME YAPELYNN! XD
okayy so book day was relatively fun. cause i think i was being damn stupid. ah wells x)

2006-04-17T19:52:00.000+08:00

i'm falling apart in your hands.

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if i had wanted to pull up my gpa, i would have taken geog.

if i hadnt wanted to screw up my gpa, i shouldnt have taken hist.

dammit i think it's just you.

and you dont even realise it.

maybe you do. but you choose to ignore it.

that's pathetic.

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maybe half of the sec one class hated me cause of you.

maybe it's just me.

tell me, how does it feel to be a hypocrite?

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i dont want this to turn into another mistake.

i dont want you to be right.

i just want to run away, don't leave me hanging

because it hurts.

~[*viViaN*]~

~[viViaN]~